It comes like a brick to the skull. My head pounds, my pulse quickens, my skin becomes fire. I rage. I lash out. The pressure is too much and I blow. Overstimulation is a bitch. For me, it is caused by nearly anything. If my clothes aren’t fitting right. If there is more than oneContinue reading “Overstimulation”


God, I have so much to write about that I don’t know where to start. This is gonna be a long one, I think, so hang on. Let’s start at the beginning. On August 27 Cain and I broke up. We broke up because I came out as a lesbian and thought that he shouldContinue reading “10/08/2021”


As an autistic, change can be hard for me. It throws my world off balance, leaves me shaken and scared. I think change bothers me so much because I cannot control it. I cannot predict it. It is one of the many things in life that can hurt me. I am going through a lotContinue reading “Change”

What is love?

Love has so many meanings. It can be used in a wide variety of contexts. I don’t really think that any one relationship can be used to describe love, because love comes in different forms for everyone. So I cannot give you a concrete definintion of love. However, I can tell you what love isContinue reading “What is love?”


One thing to know about me: I am severly mentally ill. Let me tell you my official diagnosis: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Major Depression Disorder, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, Autism Spectrum Disorder, Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, Tic Disorder, Sleep Disturbance. As you can see, the list is pretty long and filled with lots of disorders.Continue reading “Fear”


Welcome to my blog. I will discuss aspects of my relationship with you, to highlight the uniqueness of my relationship. Hopefully someone will find this blog useful, or at least feel less alone in the world. To keep myself and my partners safe, I will not disclose our true names. For all purposes, you canContinue reading “Introductions”

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